Sunday, March 20, 2011
Weddings, Songs and Firmer Tummies
So the past few days have been AWESOME! I got to babysit my 2 year old niece on Thursday and yesterday I got to go to not one, but two weddings! (Congrats to the happy couples) It is so nice to have an excuse to dress up! I also want to congratulate Mandi and Neil on getting married yesterday! Apparently yesterday was the day to get married. lol On a more personal but still happy note, while I was getting ready for the weddings I noticed that my stomach is looking more defined and I can actually see the results of my healthy living! It made me SOOO happy! It was also so much fun to see all my old church friends and catch up with them today during Sunday School (we were standing in the hallway). I did have a cheat day yesterday but I planned accordingly and I was really strict today. I also need to get back to exercising when I get home because I feel ridiculously lazy. I have more really good news. I have a song to share with you! It pretty much sums up my message for the weekend and something I want you all to remember please listen! Loves ya!
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Cha-cha-cha-cha-changing!
Right now I am babysitting my niece Sam, 2.5 years old, and she is riding on her horse-scooter and putting all of her toys in the basket. As you can see below I only lost .2 lbs this week but I'm not really worried because I feel great! I feel healthier, I don't get out of breath when I walk up stairs and I am slowly learning how to choose better foods. My weigh in is not a huge suprise because I had a couple of cheat days this week and I have been traveling. I hope to be better motivated to eat very healthy this week because I need to make up for my little slip this week. Love ya'll and greetings from California!
Weigh in Thursdays
I only lost .2 lbs today but it's better than gaining! Overall I have lost 12.6lbs. Sorry about not putting my measurements but I am in California and my measuring tape is at home! Loves ya
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Californication
I am in California now and I am LOVIN IT! It's so warm here and so far I have been doing pretty well on my diet. Today I knew we were going to Ruby's for Kailey's birthday so I planned to eat a small breakfast so that I would have enough points tonight. Ruby's is NOT weight watcher friendly! The chicken sandwich was 16 points! So I ate half of it when I was there and half when I got home and that made me pretty full. I have noticed that I don't have any motivation to eat unhealthy food. When Rachel and I were looking through her fridge for breakfast I wasn't even tempted to have a sandwich with normal bread and normal cheese. I also bought a dress for Kati Jo's wedding today and I am pretty excited about it! Well I am all distracted by Sammie's tv show os I better leave befroe I start saying weird stuff. Thanks all and I promise I'll keep writing while I am here! Love ya!
Friday, March 11, 2011
My Weight Loss Journey
Today I thought I would share with ya'll my weight loss journey starting from the time I was just a little elementary school student. During elementary school I wasn't overweight but I was usually a little bit bigger than the girls that were in my classes. When I left elementary school and was preparing for middle school I decided that for the next month before school started I would work out and diet like crazy. So I made a schedule that involved swimming laps in my pool, crunches and push ups in my house and hours of stationary bike riding in my parents room. The only problem was that I barely ate for that whole month. I ended up not losing that much weight but I had apparently boosted my metabolism and grew 4 inches that summer. When I went into middle school I was a little skinny but not as I had hoped. Over the months, because of my boosted metabolism, I shrank down to a size 0, the skinniest I have ever been in my life. The problem with that was that I didn't do it the healthy way, and when I went to school I bought cheeseburgers on a daily basis from the cafeteria so eventually I started gaining it back. During the rest of my middle school years I wasn't very overweight but just enough to where it was noticeable.
Again I graduated from middle school and decided that I didn't want to be fat in high school so I joined the cross country team. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, in fact my coach almost kicked me off the team because I walked too much during our workouts. I begged him to keep me on and I never walked during our runs again. I did indeed become much skinnier but I was still the biggest on the team and my coach always wanted me to go on diets and loose more weight. The reason why I wasn't super skinny was because I ended up eating whatever I wanted whenever I wanted and the amount of calories I was putting in my body had tripled. Nonetheless I still became the skinniest I would ever be during my high school year but the problem was when XC stopped, I still ate the same amount of food I had before and I slowly gained it back again. That summer after 9th grade I had found out about a "fitness camp" and I really wanted to go. So I packed my bags and left for 4 weeks of this camp. They had us work out for 4 hours a day and only fed us 1500 calories. We were starving but I lost 15 lbs in those 4 weeks and once again I looked better and felt better but I didn't keep up with the diet or exercise so the pounds came back.
Ever since fat camp I have slowly but surely been putting on weight. I would end up working out really hard for a day or two but I never stuck with it enough to make a difference. For the next 4 years I averaged a gain of 16 lbs a year and slowly my pants size went up while my confidence went down. The point where I really hit rock bottom was during my freshman year of college after I had moved out I realized that I weighed 208 lbs. I had never thought it possible that I could weight so much and I decided that if I wanted to be skinny again I needed to do something about it so I signed up for weight watchers during the spring tern of my freshman year and I lost about 17 lbs but once again I was doing it for the wrong reasons. I was doing it because I wanted to be skinny and look like all the other girls and I only lasted for 6 weeks.
During the next 7 months I gained back 10 pound of what I had lost and that is where I decided to do something again. So here I am on weight watchers again and this time around I have lost 12.4 lbs. Some of you may be thinking that because of my track record I am just going to fall of the band wagon again but there are several reasons why I think that this time I will stick with it. The first is because I have more support now and I check in every week on facebook with my sister and her friends that are trying to loose weight too. I think this has helped me because I know that someone is going to see what I have done that week and I am being held accountable for my actions. Another thing I am doing this time is this blog. I like to think of it as a different kind of weight loss journal although not all of my posts are about what I ate or how much I have lost. This blog has helped me so much because it has given me a safe place to explore what I am feeling and write it down. It has also been another way of holding me accountable because I know that people I love are reading it. I don't want to let you all down because I care about you so much and I know that you want what is good for me. The last thing I think is different this time is how I am thinking about my weight loss, I am not doing this because I think I will be skinny. I am living healthier because I was not happy before, most of the time I was good at hiding it but on some nights, as my roommate Carrie can testify, I would become so depressed about the way I looked that I would end up in her room crying my eyes out about why I have to have this struggle with weight while others don't. It is kind of funny how God works because I have always had that little annoying thought in the back of mind saying, Why would God make me this way? Why can't I just be like the other girls and eat whatever I want? I am slowly starting to realize that God wants me to learn how to take care of the body He has created for me. I also think it is because I tend to become more prideful when I am skinny and I know that when I do get this under control I will have those memories of where I was before to humble me. I have actually learned a lot from trying to become healthy instead of just losing weight. The way I have viewed others is different, the way I look at myself is different and even the way that I think about the world around me is different. Well sorry that was such a long post but I hope that if you had time to read it I hope you enjoyed it because this is a little bit of an emotional topic for me. Loves ya and good luck to the baseball team tonight GO DUCKS!
Again I graduated from middle school and decided that I didn't want to be fat in high school so I joined the cross country team. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, in fact my coach almost kicked me off the team because I walked too much during our workouts. I begged him to keep me on and I never walked during our runs again. I did indeed become much skinnier but I was still the biggest on the team and my coach always wanted me to go on diets and loose more weight. The reason why I wasn't super skinny was because I ended up eating whatever I wanted whenever I wanted and the amount of calories I was putting in my body had tripled. Nonetheless I still became the skinniest I would ever be during my high school year but the problem was when XC stopped, I still ate the same amount of food I had before and I slowly gained it back again. That summer after 9th grade I had found out about a "fitness camp" and I really wanted to go. So I packed my bags and left for 4 weeks of this camp. They had us work out for 4 hours a day and only fed us 1500 calories. We were starving but I lost 15 lbs in those 4 weeks and once again I looked better and felt better but I didn't keep up with the diet or exercise so the pounds came back.
Ever since fat camp I have slowly but surely been putting on weight. I would end up working out really hard for a day or two but I never stuck with it enough to make a difference. For the next 4 years I averaged a gain of 16 lbs a year and slowly my pants size went up while my confidence went down. The point where I really hit rock bottom was during my freshman year of college after I had moved out I realized that I weighed 208 lbs. I had never thought it possible that I could weight so much and I decided that if I wanted to be skinny again I needed to do something about it so I signed up for weight watchers during the spring tern of my freshman year and I lost about 17 lbs but once again I was doing it for the wrong reasons. I was doing it because I wanted to be skinny and look like all the other girls and I only lasted for 6 weeks.
During the next 7 months I gained back 10 pound of what I had lost and that is where I decided to do something again. So here I am on weight watchers again and this time around I have lost 12.4 lbs. Some of you may be thinking that because of my track record I am just going to fall of the band wagon again but there are several reasons why I think that this time I will stick with it. The first is because I have more support now and I check in every week on facebook with my sister and her friends that are trying to loose weight too. I think this has helped me because I know that someone is going to see what I have done that week and I am being held accountable for my actions. Another thing I am doing this time is this blog. I like to think of it as a different kind of weight loss journal although not all of my posts are about what I ate or how much I have lost. This blog has helped me so much because it has given me a safe place to explore what I am feeling and write it down. It has also been another way of holding me accountable because I know that people I love are reading it. I don't want to let you all down because I care about you so much and I know that you want what is good for me. The last thing I think is different this time is how I am thinking about my weight loss, I am not doing this because I think I will be skinny. I am living healthier because I was not happy before, most of the time I was good at hiding it but on some nights, as my roommate Carrie can testify, I would become so depressed about the way I looked that I would end up in her room crying my eyes out about why I have to have this struggle with weight while others don't. It is kind of funny how God works because I have always had that little annoying thought in the back of mind saying, Why would God make me this way? Why can't I just be like the other girls and eat whatever I want? I am slowly starting to realize that God wants me to learn how to take care of the body He has created for me. I also think it is because I tend to become more prideful when I am skinny and I know that when I do get this under control I will have those memories of where I was before to humble me. I have actually learned a lot from trying to become healthy instead of just losing weight. The way I have viewed others is different, the way I look at myself is different and even the way that I think about the world around me is different. Well sorry that was such a long post but I hope that if you had time to read it I hope you enjoyed it because this is a little bit of an emotional topic for me. Loves ya and good luck to the baseball team tonight GO DUCKS!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Loose Jeans
The only downside to losing weight is clothing. For example, my pair of jeans that look good on me when they are tight, are so loose that I look like I have elephant skin. The only reason why I don't buy new pants is because I want to wait until I am much skinnier and can buy pants that are several sizes down not just one. On the plus side I fell really good about my body. I know that I am not skinny by any means and that I still have a long ways to go but I feel incredible. I am not only able to breathe and move better but I am more confident and more comfortable expressing myself. I have noticed that throughout my life the times that I look the best or dress nicely are the times that I take pride in myself and I know that I have been starting to do that again more recently.
Weigh in Thursday
Hey all I lost 2 lbs this week and a total of 23 inches in 8 weeks! :] Life is good!
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